Breathe For Love

I tried to wait until Monday to post buuut... I am a very impatient person. Hehe. Lucky you.

This chapter is in two parts since it’s pretty long, and it’s mainly to answer some questions. It steps back in time, before Ethan was born, to show what happened between Josh and Hayley. :)

-Part 1-

(Three Years Ago)

Josh smiled as he hopped out of his bunk and pulled back the curtain on Hayley’s bunk to see her sweet face, sound asleep. He kissed her forehead gently and closed the curtain to find some food. He yawned as he reached the front lounge and pulled out his trusty Cap’n Crunch.

“Morning.” Zac managed through a mouthful of food.

“Unkee Josh!” Samuel, grinned. Jeremy had accidentally gotten Sarah pregnant two years ago and nine months after that came Samuel and the wedding. It was tough having a kid on tour, but he was a welcome part of the Paramore family and Jeremy couldn’t have been happier.

“Is that… a burrito, Zac?” Josh asked, spotting Zac’s plate. His brother nodded, taking another gigantic bite. Samuel giggled and ran off to the bunks, yelling for his father to ‘come look what unkee Zee was eating’.

“It’s one in the afternoon.” Zac informed. “I’m allowed to have one.” Josh rolled his eyes and slumped into a nearby chair. “How’s Hayley?” He asked.

“Sleeping.” Josh replied with a frown. Hayley had been sick lately. They were only a few weeks into the tour though, so it wasn’t completely unexpected. But this time was a bit different. Normally she was only ill for a few days, if at all, and she just had vocal issues. This time, she’d been vomiting almost every day for a week.

Andrew, the tour manager, and Josh were finally forcing her to go to the hospital this afternoon. Josh hoped it wouldn’t be anything too serious and they’d give her some antibiotics and send her on her way.

“When’s the appointment?” Zac asked.

“Actually, I should get her up, it’s at 2:30 I think.” Josh mumbled.

“I’m up.” Hayley said happily.

“How are you feeling?” Josh asked with a smile. She walked over and sat on his lap, kissing him sweetly.

“Excellent.” She replied. “I’m starving!”

“Burrito?” Zac asked, holding out what was left of his. The color drained from her face and seconds later, she ran for the nearest trash bin. Josh winced but walked over to rub her back soothingly.

“The smell.” She gasped, pointing to Zac’s burrito. His face was quite green at this point, and he hurried to open a window to get rid of the burrito smell.

“Fuck!” Hayley said. “Nothing to throw up, just bile.” Josh curled his lip and his stomach churned dangerously. “Sorry.” She mumbled. She wiped her mouth and turned around. She was very sweaty and pale, Josh felt horrible for her. Hopefully the doctor could fix her up quickly.

“I’m sorry, babe.” He frowned. “I know being sick is no fun.” She rolled her eyes and weaved around him to find a toothbrush. “No more Mexican food until I’m better!” She called over her shoulder. Zac nodded vigorously, still slightly green in the face.

“Ms. Williams?” A nurse called. Hayley stood up with a smile and followed the nurse to an exam room.

“What seems to be the problem?” The nurse asked.

“Well, I’m feeling fine now, but I’ve been pretty sick recently. I’m touring, so it’s not that uncommon, but it would be great if there is a way to get better faster.” Hayley informed. She wanted to get in and out as quickly as possible.

“Alright. Lets see what we can find out.” The nurse smiled. “I just have a few questions.” Hayley nodded and answered all the questions about health issues in her family and previous illnesses.

“Just a few more.” The nurse assured as Hayley began to get annoyed with the long list of questions.

“Uhm… lets see. Oh, yes. Are you sexually active?” The nurse asked. Hayley blushed deeply, thinking of Josh.

“Yes.” She answered quietly.

“How many partners and do you use protection?”

“One partner, my boyfriend, just a few times though.” Hayley replied. “And we always use protection.”

“Alright, great. That’s all I’ve got for you.” The nurse smiled. “The doctor will be by shortly to do some blood tests. Don’t worry, we’ll fix you right up.”

“Thanks!” Hayley smiled.

Josh checked his phone for the billionth time, waiting for news from Hayley. He had wandered around town all day and played laser tag with Jeremy, Taylor and Zac for a few hours. She had to be back from the doctors by now. He dialed her number and waited for an answer, her phone went straight to voicemail.

“Hey, guys, I’m gonna head back to the bus. I’m getting kinda worried.” Josh announced as he hung up the phone.

“Alright, let us know what’s up.” Jeremy smiled. “Anyone up for food?”

“Always!” Zac replied. “See you, Josh!” Josh waived and headed back toward the bus.

“Hey! Hayley!” Josh called as he spotted her, sitting alone, outside the bus. “Whoa! What’s up?” He asked. Her cheeks were stained with dried tears, but she looked strangely calm.

“Found out why I’m sick.” She said quietly. Josh’s heart sped up. It wasn’t anything serious was it?

“Why?” He asked casually. Hayley didn’t reply. She looked like she might cry again. He sat next to her and pulled her into his arms.

“It’s ok.” He whispered, kissing the side of her head. She shifted so she could see him and kissed him hard on the mouth.

“Mmm.” Josh moaned into the kiss with a smile. “What was that for?” He asked as Hayley broke away.

“I’m… I’m pregnant.” She said quietly.

“I’m sorry, what?” Josh laughed. “I swear you just said…" his face went deadly serious, "what?” Hayley groaned and ran her fingers through her hair.

“How?!” Josh gasped. “Who’s is it?”

Hayley looked at him in disbelief. “Yours, asshole!” She laughed, shoving him playfully. “The freaking condom must have broke.” She added with a sigh.

“Oh…” Josh replied. “Must have been that night before band pract…”

“Before practice started up, yes.” Hayley rolled her eyes.

“You’re… you’re pregnant?!” Josh yelled, as it finally hit him. “With my kid?!” Hayley glared at him.

“Yes, captain obvious!” she hissed. “Say it a little louder, why don’t you? I don’t think they heard you across town!” She spat.

“What are we gonna do?” Hayley wailed after a few moments of silence. Josh didn’t reply. He stood up slowly and turned to face her. He planted a kiss on the top of her head and began to walk away.

“Josh! Don’t you dare leave!” She yelled.

“I’ll be back.” He promised.

“Joshua Farro!” She spat.

“I need to think about how to handle this!” He said. “I’ll be back soon.” Tears instantly formed in Hayley’s eyes, but she didn’t stop him.

“Josh, get your bubble butt back here now!” Sarah roared dangerously as she hurried off the bus. Hayley stifled a giggle through her tears and allowed herself to be enveloped in a hug from Sarah as Josh began to jog away from them.

“He’ll be back.” Hayley whispered.

Next part of the chapter should be up within the next few days :)

I think I broke my toe >.< ouch! hahaha